Dance with my Father again

one of my favs by Luther Vandross

Back when I was a child

Before life removed all the innocence

My father would lift me high

And dance with my mother and me and then

Spend me around till I fell asleep

Then up the stairs he would carry me

And I knew for sure I was loved

Chorus:

If I could get another chance

Another walk, another dance with him

I'd play a song that would never ever end

How I'd love love love to dance with my father again

*I came home yesterday, feeling exhausted and soreness on my body; yet I am feeling so alive in me. He blew me off again, when I finally realised what He has been doing. Suprise, audie!

It was just Tuesday night when we decided we shall come up with a dance item. I was given the responsibility to lead the dance team. Something that I never expect before, as normally I will just follow what others do.

I went to bed that night, feeling so clueless of what's happening. The performance is next Tuesday at one of the biggest local mall. I was feeling the pressure and really dont know what to do or expect. But my heart desire to see it come through, as a gift for our dear Saviour's birthday.

I couldnt sleep, so I got up and prayed in tongues till I felt the breakthrough. With my eyes shut, I sensed His peace and presence. I remember the sms that a friend sent the other day, "God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm74"

I woke up on Wednesday morning, there's no new ideas yet but I was definitely more calm and fresh. I told Father that I dont want to go through another motion without Him being in it. Unless Father builds the house and this, we all labour in vain. Truly, not by our might, but by His power and spirit. Let this be an act our worship as our heart desires to see His name be glorified. I prayed for His joy to flow as the team come together with one heart and one spirit. I asked for His provision, wisdom, favor and inspiration. I pray for an extraordinary experience this time.


He reminded me about Miriam in the bible.

And true enough, yesterday was mind-blowing. Nothing that I have expected. Ideas poured out like heavy rain. My family for being so supportive. The girls and I had a good time of fellowship while exploring the dance together. For all the texts and encouragement... I am forever grateful. He's definitely with me in every step. It was just the beginning, but I believe with Father in it, He will bring it to completion, a great one. All glory belongs to Him alone.

What I want for Christmas?

This is classic.
Everytime when the question was thrown to me,
I have heaps of expressions,
but all stemmed out from the *I have no idea* crux.

Dinner

We had this massive reunion dinner last night with my grandparents and most of my father's siblings last night at this new chinese restaurant near my place. The food was yummy!. So what's the function? No reason actually. Dad just decided that we should come together to eat. I like that, especially I have been missing such dinner for 2 years! Thanks, dad!

capturing moments

I was sitting here for more than 10 mins, still thinking of what to write. Homecoming has definitely caused a significant shift in my life. Things are familiar yet I find it quite different. May be it's just me that have changed a lot. I find it amazing how the 2 years in NZ have shaped my life and perspective about many things.

I have learned and still learning to appreciate every moment in life. Whether it's good or bad moments, that's part and parcel of life. I guess that what makes life more colourful.

Since I landed, many times when faced with hard things, I often asked why did God send me back here to face all these. Yet in the midst of storms, He often did wonders and surprises me with a lot of things. i praise God for His greatness and faithfulness. I am grateful for the 'angels' that He has sent to encourage me to press on, to pray for me and with me. Not only that, it was an opportunity for me to feel His heartbeat for these people and myself. God loves, that's definite.

Time is short. Just as I began to get a bit adjusted to life here, I realised I have only a few weeks left before tapping into a new dimension. *cringe* I dont know what to expect tho. I pray that as I surrender to You, Father, You'll lead me to where You want me to be. I want the things You want for me.

Dad came home with a mixer today! yeah! Praise God. Gonna start baking for cny.

Looking forward for Christmas, the homecoming, and a memorable dinner. Not sure what's goin to happen but I am sure Father already has a hand in it. He's going to make it awesome.

I have my ballet costume tailor-made. Cost me quite a lot but it seems that now the plan isnt going that well. They have changed the original plan to carolling at a shopping mall and christmas lunch at the restaurant. I am looking forward to it. But I am still wondering where to fit in the performance leh? Anyway, surrending it all to God. Let it be done according to Your will, not mine.

Just got back from bible camp. Learned a lot of things and met a lot of new people. My biggest lesson is to appreaciate water more now as during our stay there, there was a bad lack in the water supply. Guess it's a good time to be away to catch some breath and just be immersed in His presence and testimonies.

We had came session this morning with the mission team from Auckland. Felt so blessed by their sharing. Pastor Alfred prayed for me and really felt the presence of the Holy Spirit "sister, you are CALLED... You are called to carry His message."

Did lots of shopping for cny clothings and shoes. *so there goes a hole in every pockets* but I miss this bit ever since I was away. CNY shopping with mummy is always the best.

Had the most expensive haircut so far in my life. 55 per haircut. It was nice for the first few days but now I feel that it's making me look a bit too mature that I like it to be. Aihs. Girls... haha. Still considering weather I want to have it straighten or permed.

Just baked durian cake for 2nd time. First time was too sweet (according to grandparents and parents) this time, I put less sugar (they said it's nice but I find it better with more sugar). I have sweet-toothe? haha.. may be.

it's 1am now. So i'll continue to update you all next time.